Friday, September 30, 2011

Define Swimming:


[Exerpt from:] The view of a competitive swimmer:
Why do competitive swimmers love swimming? Because they couldn't imagine their life with out it. Its part of them, its something they live for. They live for the 5 a.m practices, pasta parties, cheers, long bus rides, invitationals, countless swim caps, chlorine, and coaches you hate but appreciate later. They live for the way it feels when you beat the person next to you by a tenth of a second and you know those 2 extra laps you did in practice were worth it. You live for the way you jump every time you hear a buzzer, or the way you scream whenever you hear the gun on the 500, even though you hear it every time. You live for the way you celebrate when you get to do a set with fins. You live for the way you become a family with your team, and no one understands what happens within that pool or locker room, but you. You live for the countless songs you sing in your head when your swimming those laps. You live for the people who scream at you while your swimming even though all you hear is BLAH BLAH BLAH. You live for the competition, you live for the friends, you live for the practice, you live for the pain, its a part of you. You are a swimmer.

It's the feeling you get at the end of a hard practice, when you've pushed ur self to the limits, and it's the way the water feels when get back in after time off, it's knowing that you don't have to shave for months at a time, and thinking of 7:00 am practice as sleeping in. It's muscle cramps, swimmers ear, and 11 practices a week. It's when your coach knows you better than your father, and your teammates are your brothers and sisters. It's seeing everyone else cheer you on during a race, and knowing your team is behind you. It's borrowing caps and sharing shampoo, going through whole boxes of cereal in one day, and blowing the fuse in the locker room four times because everyone has to get ready after morning practice. It's hearing people at school say "It's must be a swimmer thing," and always having the best parking spot because you are the first one at the school every morning. It's a collection of T-shirts and ribbons, and not really being able to put into words how the meet went. It's knowing that you got up and did something you love, and something you hate, and something you can't really explain, and don't really want to understand. It's the way you walk, and the way you talk. It's something that no one else really understands because they haven't felt the felling you get every time you step up on the blocks, that swimming isn't just a sport... it's all the friends and coaches over the years, all the practices and inside jokes, all the memories, all the fun times and all the road trips, 

because swimming is more than just a sport...

Thursday, September 22, 2011

College Swimming

Does swimming have to end once you get a job?
This is something I have been struggling with for sometime. Once you get out into the 'real world' there are so many time constraints. So many things to do, places to be, and you have got to make a living somehow. I just started my first job out of school, and I can't tell you how much I miss swimming already. Sure I still get in and practice nearly every day, but the atmosphere and the mentality have changed. It's no longer about being part of a team. It is totally for me. I am the master of my destiny so to speak.
This summer I competed at the USA National Championship swim meet in Palo Alto, CA. I tell you what, nothing has inspired me to keep swimming quite as much as that trip. I rubbed shoulders with so many famous athletes and coaches, I swam against the best in the nation, I had a blast, and even somehow got better at my long course times.
Now I'm at a small college in Western PA coaching for a college team. I love coaching, but I don't really want to leave competitive swimming behind. It has always been a huge part of my life. Winter Nationals are coming up in December, and it's the same weekend as the winter invitational that the college team goes to each year. So literally, I am faced with the choice: career, or swimming. This decision makes every time I get in the water a struggle. I am so close to the Olympic Trial cut, I can almost taste it. I want to go so badly, but I feel I have an obligation to the team that I have committed myself to. I want to be there for them when they compete at their meet. I am still very torn about this decision, but it's not completely over yet.
So what should I do? Follow my dreams and beg my coach to give me the weekend off? Or just let it go, and forever wonder what could have been?